Hello my name is Nickole, I am a wife and mother and I currently resign at Rainbow Family Ministry. I want to thank you for the opportunity to be able to write my testimony and share with you what the lord is doing in my life.
I was born in North Hollywood but raised in Highland Park and lived in Glendale. My father was from some part in Mexico and my mother was from LA.I have one sister from my parents, When I was around seven years old my parents divorced. I moved in with my father, who remarried, as for my mother I have not spoken or seen her in over thirteen years. That’s when I started looking for love in all the wrong places.
I met my husband Jonathan in high school, we became high school sweet hearts and soon after I graduated and I experienced drugs with him and began an unhealthy life style, consumed with drugs, sex, and partying, stealing and gaining many other addictions. Running the streets became a normal thing for me. Jonathan and I not only were boyfriend and girlfriend but he was my love, my everything and my partner in crime. I started to like the life style the freedom and the authority of no parents.
Jonathan and I grew inseparable and we not only had a love like no other that changed us from when we first met into people we could not even recognize in each other let alone look in the mirror and know who we were any more. Soon, after a couple of years of that life style at age 22 years old I got pregnant. I wore baggy clothes and wanted to hang out in the scene still. Soon after the Dr told me I was in high risk of loosing the baby and In order for her to be ok I had to go in the hospital that night. So I did and they ran test on the baby and me and they filled me with fluid that I was loosing and the Dr said I was able to have a healthy girl if I take care of myself. So I did and thanks to God he put people in my path that lead me to a pregnancy house called Elizabeth House. Four months later I had a beautiful healthy baby girl, named Alyssa Grace Hammond.
I stayed on my best behavior for eight months after the birth of baby Ally, but I moved to Barstow because of my starting to use again living with her father. So I left to live with my sister. My sister would baby sit while I started College to get my teachers associate certificate. I began to use there in Barstow and made my own stomping grounds, soon after my addiction became way stronger then I could handle. I began to leave my daughter with my sister to hangout, smoke dope and be with whom ever
I wanted to surround my self with. I experienced guilt and a part of me wanting to do well. Those two feelings pulled me in different directions. Finally I couldn’t handle it any more and I found Rainbow Ministry. A place where I could take my daughter and it was a Christian program.
I lived with women that had children and the same problem as me. I attended Rainbow Ministry and stayed there for four months. I learned so many things and the lord was truly working on me, I thought I learned it all and could be strong enough but the enemy can work in so many ways against us and drag us down again, and I left the program. I remained strong for six months and got my own apartment and attended college and wanted to continue my teacher’s associate goal. I did everything I said I was going to do and stayed strong while my daughter’s father was doing a year in prison. Jonathan was released May 5, 2008 and I was so happy we wanted him to be near his daughter and me. So Jonathan and I got married, again I had my partner in crime. This time we were married, the drugs consumed our life again. We didn’t steel, we did just did drugs very heavenly and were in great denial about the way we were living. Our fights got worse and our hate grew worse. We were married on top of all the and the pressure of all of that stuff made the days worse and I hated my self even more in every possible way. My world was dark without the lord in my life and I would never want it like that again.
Recently my husband Jonathan violated parole and had to go into Victory Outreach Ministry. God truly answered my prayers. I then realized what I was missing in my life, love, laughter, God. So for the second time I willingly called Liz Lee form Rainbow house Ministry and asked her for help and we prayed on the phone and my heart filled with joy and that there was hope once again for my family and I. Although Living with women and there children was adjustment for me, besides I am willing to do what ever it takes to get the lord back in my life as well as my family’s. And Rainbow Family was the perfect place for me, they have helped me once again to redeem myself and become a child of God. They have helped me to better my self as a women and a mother, also enroll back in college to continue what I started on getting my teachers associate. The greatest part of all I can do it in a God filled environment with women that are shooting for the same goal as me.
The best part is waking up everyday with peace in my heart ,and my beautiful daughter also having staff in the home help me save my marriage and helping me to rebuild my family to have Christian family values. We start off the day with a 9am structured environment focusing on the lord and having to do the curriculum working on some of the issues that have been holding me back in life. At the end of the day we read our bibles and pray with each other and I cannot believe there is so much wisdom in the word of God. I just want to be connected to Rainbow ministry and serve the lord as one of the teachers at the youth center. My goal is to please God and obey his word.
While working on my program I realized I had a breakthrough and from now on I will take responsibility for my actions.
For I am convicted that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,
Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creations, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our lord.